28 sep 2006

arg . . . what happened to me today??kinda of dull today
i don't know my mind is like so numb . suddenly scare that i might lost something that i used to have . i couldn't control my feelings now . i couldn't think of anything that make me sad.

i just realise that i really have think too much , thinking that i'm one of an useless person . people always say that 18 years old is always the fun n enjoyable year but to me it doesn't . i felt that i'm going to ruin my whole entire life . so stress up in life , couldn't be able to be like how i used to be .

i have always enjoy my life during my secondary sch day. that the moment when we could be
so happy , could not need to bother about anything , do whatever things we would want to do .

people always say that i use to have a bad childhood . even thought i wanted to admit but didn't
cause i want to live my life to the fullest , remember the happiest moments . i love my family and friends too much . everytimes when there are quarrelment i just hope that everything going to be fine in the next sec . thinking about the past , i really think that i deserve it . i'm not that perfect anyway .

i hope i would go back to nusery when i do not know anything .haha

seeing everyone around me growing older n also getting further away . i guess i just could not face the fact that everyone has their own path of life n be separated .

anyway guys , if u all happen to read this . just bare this in mind i am ok . do not need to worry .
tat's me .gotta get use to it .yeah? haha anyway happy birthday ling !